Hello all…

Things have been awfully quiet around here of late and I’d love to say that it’s because I’ve been super busy (which I have) but mostly it lays quiet because sometimes that’s just the way I live my life. Being an introvert means for me that there are times in my life (when things get tough and stressful) when I just need to be still. Still with my thoughts, still with my words, still with the talking.

I’ve been busy shooting, editing, conversing and planning for a number of things and it hasn’t left much time for bending my mind into blog mode. However, at the same time, I feel like I’m sitting on the precipice of a new stage of my life and at times it’s so overwhelming that my first reaction is to retreat. Are you like that? I’m getting better at dipping my feet in the shallow end and taking those baby steps I know I need to take. The first step was saying yes to something that my stomach instantly felt was a no. I’m throwing this out into the world and hoping that there’s someone else out there that needed to hear that I feel it too. I feel the fear, I feel the doubt, I feel the butterflies and the anxiety. But there comes a point where letting the fear control the decisions you make gets really old and you just need to step up.

And so, I leave you with this quote from the ever brilliant Six Feet Under… (David is talking to his dead father, Nathaniel)

Nathaniel Sr: You aren’t even grateful, are you?

David: Grateful? For the worst fucking experience of my life?

Nathaniel Sr..: You hang onto your pain like it means something, like it’s worth something. Well, let me tell ‘ya, it’s not worth shit. Let it go. Infinite possibilities, and all he can do is whine.

David: Well, what am I supposed to do?

Nathaniel Sr.: What do you think? You can do anything, you lucky bastard, you’re alive! What’s a little pain compared to that?

David: It can’t be that simple.

Nathaniel Sr.: [putting his arm around David and pulling him closer] What if it is?